| i am girl. i am girl bad. no logical way of penance that i know. i have run and i have fallen and i am not even worthy to sing. not even worthy to view. not even worthy to inhale. abashment is hard. i meet with you when i feel absolute and i feel cleansed
i have been given ponderous things
things i like:
love.
friend.
twin.
love.
love in bodily form that i will place in a jar with a label: everything
praise praise praise
but whom can i be to praise thou?
thou of such great majestry?
i am girl with a past that haunts. haunts with a daily reminder of things i know but want to so dearly to forget. things i invision and cringe. things that hurt and don't stop. things that hurt others and i want so deeply to be able to stop but i am so small to do actions of the sort. things that change people from being noble to dishonorable. things i regret but try not to because those things made me: girl
but this is your creation and i will try to be excusing
my action will hopefully be most pleasing
to take what i've become and make it to who you would be most pleased with
i will show myself
in whole
for your judgement alone
and i pray what i have done will deem me worthy to be called: daughter
and i want more that anything on earth for you to say the words you once told your son.
say: you are my daughter of whom i am most pleased
my desire |
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| consumer of the masses.
view what is real, strenuous to see..
every human has purities.
you could say this = done.
every nook has love.
small yes. but i drown.
i swim in you.
waves crashing and flowing over me until nothing exists.
nothing exists but what's here.
my exit.
of course.
birds must understand living in endless utopia.
of course.
nothing matters only you.
this is just starting. |
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| with you i want it to be pure.
[because you're of more importance.]
you're in my pocket.
[because you wanted to wait.]
i'm taking you out for air.
[because sometimes oxygen is hard.]
it's time to start this.
[because we've taken enough time.]
everything happens for a reason, that i do believe. |
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| Every point of view has another angle
And every angle has its merit
But it all comes down to faith
Thats the way I see it. |
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| You can say that love is not divine and
you can say that life is not eternal.
"All we have is now"
But I don't believe it. |
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